to be continued

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Let loose your inhibitions

What a random week, from mama's couch

to covered Boston Whalers on the Balboa Peninsula

To Penthouses at The Palms and unhostile hostel takeovers

from late arrivals and no place to call home, content.

I shook the hand of my childhood idol and learned in Vegas

that he's been having a problem with painkillers

Arn says that Craig Kelly had this peace about him

and Jamie has it too so the conclusion strewn is that

When You spend enough time in the trees you reach a certain nirvana

I need to ride, I need to shred for my mind's sake

Bag the park and bag the image, feed the soul

Let loose the inhibitions and viral attachments you hold

My buddy Ben says that if you surround yourself with Bums

You Become one. And I say surround yourself with everyone

IE good people and see the good qualities in them

8 habits of the heart you will be read and homeless kids in my neighborhood you will be fed

Now I know your education has got you racin from one step to the next

you get a degree then a job to pay back the debt

but free your mind my friend free your soul.

Let loose the inhibitions and viral attachments you hold

Constantly weighing ourselves down with the drudgeries of Self image bullshit

and insecure ambitions. No longer shall we reach for the stars

they are simply too far. They're not there for us to reach out and touch

but rather a means for us to aspire, join forces and build each other up.

See if you were to reach out your arm as far as it will go

Until it feels as though the bones will somehow explode

through those little swivels that you call your own

you'll have blood on your hands and a loose hold at your feet

You will fall. Unless your clever enough to have somebody step in beneath

and so on and so forth until you've reached the heavens and celestial spheres

On the backs of others, only to find yourself alone at the top

looking down on all those you've stopped

Realizing what you've done, is preposterous like leaving leftovers to rot

so friends I implore you, take a look at the company you keep

are you strengthening ties through cross communal techniques

or are you merely reaching for the sky with good people beneath?

This is not my vision for truth

c'est personne et tout le monde

You cannot own truth

so in jest everything you own, is false.

Even the notion of you, see there is no you and there is no us

we are but one; one heart, one pulse, and one love

Yet apart by mental seperation

It is all in your mind

Speaking of which, I need to ride

I need to shred for my mind's sake

bag the park and bag the image feed your soul

let loose the inhibitions and viral attachments that you hold.

Sick of holding my breath

I get called up about a million times a day

Its from people I dont know who dont know what to say

A scripted shifted thoughtless process

and I am not interested in your free tickets to the tropics

How'd you get my number anyway?

I swear more people call me than I even care to say

Clearly not a million I'm exaggerating a bit

but what the * you stupid * take me off that putrid list

I am sick of holding my breath

Mom's two states away dreaming of morning sunrises

and walks on the beach while I sit at home alone

not interested in social excursions with thoughtless speech

this one here

this is for the rocking peeps

caught in the streets with nowhere to go

and nowhere to sleep at least in peace

cause Im right there with you homie

I shit you not rumble and tumble I live to rot

and rot I will until the day that my shit is packed

and I fly away, cause I'm sick of holding my breath

But I've devised a plan to get us out of this mess

to realize our true potential and put it to the test

I confess, I'm a lost child with seemingly insignificant significance

and what lies in these lines is my deliverance

From evil. From people who stand beneath church steeples

preaching guilt ridden values to all those unequal

From people with white collars and BIG dollars

telling me that "money is what makes the world spin."

Sir I must differ what makes my world spin comes in a bottle

and its labelled liquor and when that bottle tips a final degree

from a 179 to a mere one eighty and that last drop hits my lips

My God am I in bliss and you better believe that I'm living my dreams

So save me your idealistic ideologies of philosophy

cause its gotten me ill, ill enough to kill

like the US Government after Kennedy's "United States Note"

Engraved on a debt free 2 dollar bill

Sir I've have my fill and the game is done

I aint here to judge so I cant say who's won

but I can say that since early, my journey,

well its just begun.. simply because I am sick of holding my breath.

THE LIFE

Woke up quick about a quarter to 6

I got to work and I feel like shit

now its the same shit just a different day

where I work my ass off and I barely get paid

See I've been lying to myself

Saying: "its a step" in the direction that I'm tryin to get

cause I spend it all on gas and booze

and head on home straight to you

Is this the life that I'm to live?

Find a wife and have some kids?

get a good job that I can't quit?

Cause I don't see me living this

Never stop exploring without a doubt

every chance I get I must get out

rest my head beneath the stars

long as my body is above the clouds

now where we go says who we are

so Ima ditch the phone and Ima pass some cars

cause finding paradise aint all that hard

and Mexico aint all that far

So is this the life that I'm to live?

Find a wife and have some kids?

Get a good job that I can't quit?

Cause I dont see me living this.

O SON OF MAN!

Write all that We have revealed unto thee with the ink of light upon the tablet of thy spirit. Should this not be in thy power, then make thine ink of the essence of thy heart. If this thou canst not do, then write with that crimson ink that hath been shed in My path. Sweeter indeed is this to Me than all else, that its light may endure for ever.

O Son of Being!

Thy heart is My home; sanctify it for My descent. Thy spirit is My place of revelation; cleanse it for My manifestation.

She Thinks I'm Crazy

She thinks I'm crazy and I'm not so sure thats a bad thing

cause she said I'm amazing too

now we rushed in quick with a touch and a kiss

but I'm not so sure I'm in love with this chick

and yeah, usually that wouldn't really mean a whole hell of a lot

cause I find her beautiful and she, me hot

but I've been there before

and with whom I've done that dance we glance no more

Not even a simple hello or a non chalant hey

to a woman with whom I shared my bed

and allowed to caress my face

and that bothers me

more than any little quark or silly pet peeve

or lame ass show blasting way too loud on the god damn tv

more than a sunburn acquired on the 2nd day

of a week long island getaway

More than conversations starting with

ending with or containing anywhere therein

the phrase:

"like oh my god"

More than false hopes

and fake smiles combined

more than suppressed fights

that overwhelm and eventually test pride

more than somebody leaving the last little bit of milk in the refrigerator

making you think that you have just enough for that delicious bowl of cereal

but when you go to pour it out it barely splashes the top layer

leaving you looking at the carton like what in the ...

more than sketchy wifi connections

that only work when you put the computer riiiiiiiiiiiight here

and when you go to send that beautifully crafted reply

to that woman that had your eye, you realize; you've lost your connection

Literally

and that's what bothers me most

is that two people could become so close

and with a flip of a switch and a brisk removal of clothes

a connection is lost and a friendship morose

so yeah, she thinks I'm crazy

but I'm not so sure that's a bad thing

cause she said I'm amazing too

and the feelings mutual but the connections fading

cause we rushed in with fugitive hearts

still in need of aiding

and criminal hips

apparently in need of abetting

now I still think you're wonderful

and I doubt that'll ever change

But I can see its in our best interest

to not let our bodies behave the way that the crave

cause it would definitely be a shame

If I had to live to see the day where you hesitate

on a simple hello

or even a non chalant, hey.